Should I give up?

“Never give up. Never give up. Never give up." I have preached and said this to so many people all over the world. But It is so funny that you have to go through a time when it seems God is far away to really understand it. I have always thought this was an excellent advice for politicians and soldiers facing defeat, for students facing exams and papers, for athletes facing stiff competition, for parents despairing over wayward children, for married couples wondering if they should divorce, for those lost in the despair that follows the death of a loved one. To all these people I said, never give up. never give up. never give up.

But now I am going through that time where it seems the world has forgotten me. It seems prayers doesn’t work or sermons from inspiring preachers. I have taken so many “prayer –walks” in Master’s Commission and I have read so many books about never giving up on your dreams or in the promises of God. But let me tell you something today in my prayer walk I was so real and honest with God. I was telling God this “God, If you don’t come through I don’t know what’s going to happen, Oh, God Why is it so hard to see your arms of embrace, love, care in my life today” Let me tell you something, my heart was so broken before the Lord and one more time God reminded me of his unfailing and unconditional love towards me.

I have so many reasons to give up if I look in the natural world. Everything is against me. I have nothing but Jesus. No power, No status. A nobody to most everybody. But not to myself! I refuse and will always refuse to sit down and sing that old Hee Haw tune. I am not going to take on the role of victim, of woe is me. To the contrary, I have a sense of dignity, of worth. My voice is tiny, but I am going to raise it anyway. My power is small, but I am going to use what I have. Maybe everyone else have given up on me, if they noticed me at all, but I have not given up. Never! Ever!

It really hurts when I get the message from others that I am a nobody, that I don't matter, that I am a loser. That's a terrible burden to bear. But I can bear that as long as I do not say to myself, "They're right. I am a loser. Give up." Yet that's how many people do see myself or are made to see themselves. But I know who I am in God and I am never giving up. I can face the Giants, But I know my God is bigger. I can face lost in my financial life but I know my Lord sustains me for ever and ever.

Man, I never thought raising money to go to Africa would be this hard. Many days I want to give up on raising money but The cool thing is God shows me the face of the hopeless children in Africa and He shows me hugging and embracing them and whispering in their ears do never give up on life. So I will keep going for the people in Africa that need Jesus. Even if Churches don’t help me, or people I thought they would . I am going to fight for those people and I will never give up on them either because they need the Jesus in Me. Amen!!!